*confused*

[[13 march 07]]

went suntec kbox.

celebrated early b'dae with many ppl.

ky, sarah, pigpig, mx, joxef, jeremy n many other ky friends.

were very crazy at kbox.

had a small cake for celebrations.

jeremy even took a small slice of it to smash ky face.

den ky got really pissed.

we threw peanuts everywhere.

even drank vodka and smoked.

but of cos. i was too guai to do any of those.

hahs. pigpig went off early.

cos need go down to office.

never blamed him.

when sending pigpig to suntec convention centre.

i saw zj. when i saw him, i tried to hide my relationship with pigpig.

i didn't know why i did tat.

but i know my heart is with pigpig.

nobody can seperate us.

when pigpig ask me wat happened n who he is,

i didn't reply. i dunno why.

but i still told him.

i accompanied pigpig to wait for bus.

we waited for quite some time.

along the time, pigpig wanted me sit his lap.

but i refused. i wasn't in a mood for tat.

i was deep in thoughts.

i tried to hide my feelings.

but i think pigpig can sense it all.

i felt like crying at tat point.

but i know pigpig would worry.

so i didn't. i just hugged him tightly.

hugging him makes me forget every worry i had for as long as i hugged him.

he gave me the sense of security.

it is den i know i made the right choice.

i would never let go of him.

pigpig tried to kiss me several times on the lips.

i knew all along tat he was trying.

but i kept avoiding and act as if i didn't know.

pigpig. if u ever read this post.

i'm really sorry. but i not ready yet.

i got fear. but dun ask me why,

cos i dun wan repeat it.

i was really afraid.

tat i would lose him.

jeremy said something.

he said tat we wouldn't last long.

i was really hurt at the time.

he kept saying our character don't blend.

i would prove to him tat he's wrong.

we will last very long de.

no matter wat.

i wont let us end.

so after kbox we went play pool at bugis, fusion

jeremy taught me how to play.

he was a great teacher.

and i was a fast learner.

so after tat. jeremy and his friend sent me home.

went all the way to kaki bukit.

den in the end waited for around 30min

den realise last bus gone long ago. hahs.

jeremy friend want my phone number.

den i kept giving many reasons.

i say no le he still want.

i know is he want my num do wat lors.

jeremy really a nice guy.

he help me find ways to reject his friend.

he on speaker let me hear wat they saying.

tat idiotic friend of his say something.

"i know they wont last long de lors"

from this sentence can see wat he want do lors.

i was like wth. even want chase me aso cant like tat ma.

soon my dad came fetch me home.

den after i reach home i bathe n chatted with pigpig for awhile.

den tried to sleep.

too many things was on my mind.

i couldn't sleep.

i was worried.

worrying bout what pigpig might be thinking.

towards how i reacted.

thinking wat i would do if i lose him.

worrying bout wat jeremy and his friend said.

excited bout 15 march.

so many so many things were on my mind.

i really couldn't sleep.

ppl... after reading this.

dun worry too much bout me

i just need to pour out my feelings.

i will find a way to solve these prob de.

kat will find back herself de.

although now may be really lost.

but i guarantee i will find back myself.

hEe. okay le lahs.

[[lubb euu forever]]

i will not let us end.

we WILL be together forever de.

whoever wants to seperates us.

shall die before us.

we WILL overcome all obstacles.

stay as one body and fight them.

i WILL never let u leave me.

NEVER EVER.

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